Wait, wait and wait some more

I'm down to 3 days a week at current job (my choice).  I barely do anything but try to look busy.  The pay is not too bad (for this economy), I have benefits but yet I still want to leave.  I'm learning nothing about anything I either care about or want to continue to work in, in the future.  Since no one reads this blog I'll say it, I work in insurance and I hate it.  I was laid off the same day as about 200 other big law people & the recruiters told me that I was soooo lucky to get this job.  But I can't stand insurance, it was only going to be for a year at the most and it's been over a year and a half.  I really tried to take an interest in it but every time I hear words like broker/producer/loss ratio/claims/medical review I want to either hurl or fall asleep.

The feds (my almost dream job) most likely (99% likely) do not have the money to hire me for the job I was originally offered.  They got less money approved for their budget than they asked for and they aren't going to create the position after all.  So I spent a good half hour on the phone the other night, cajoling/ begging them to offer me anything else.  Clerical support, secretary, I don't care, I'm not too proud, it doesn't have to be paralegal.  The only thing that looks promising is some contract work in the same office but a different unit.  I have to wait until next week to find out if that might happen.  No benefits and temporary but I would still take it in a heart beat.  So I wait some more.......

In the meantime I'm really enjoying the extra time w/ monkey. She is the sweetest thing ever.  DH is good, he loves his crazy far away job and is having a great time, if it only offered benefits me leaving for contract work wouldn't be such a big deal.   As fall approaches though it feels like it's not just the kids who need to go back to school. Mommy needs some intellectual stimulation too.  So I wait some more.......