Why are you tempting me with this $$$ ???

So even though I am going to go to law school p/t while working a f/t day job I seem to be eligible for just as much in loans to cover living expenses as f/t students?? I didn't know that. It's like $18,000 a year plus I can get separating funding for daycare and a computer. I was thinking I would just take out a few thousand for a new computer (my laptop is a dinosaur in computer age & randomly stops turning on) and then maybe a little bit for daycare b/c new job has no backup care benefits and plus I need to hire someone to help out around the house a couple hours a month (if I leave it to DH to all the cleaning I may have to kill him)

But it's soooo tempting to take out more, there are all these things I can think of that we need but never have extra $$$ for... hmmmm

I went to a open house thing a couple of weeks ago at my law school (I love writing that!!) and one of the speakers harped on the loan thing saying "a lot of students live like lawyers when they are students and then when they are lawyers they have to live like students" yeah okay I guess you have a point .. but it's still so tempting!!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE

3 day weekends... I think I said this before but I sooo need a 4 day a week job! I was tempted to make it a 4 day weekend but I don't have a lot of PTO time at the new job, so I'm trying to save it for finals.

6 weeks till school starts! I'm making a list of stuff to do before then. It feels like I'm leaving the country or going away to prison, one or the other. A sample of things on the list:

Detail car
Fix air conditioning in car
New glasses
Dentist
Clean bedroom (in particular under the bed)


I'm also trying to spend lots of time w/ my monkey, I sure am going to miss seeing her before she goes to bed 3 nights a week maybe 4. We're off to go see the movie Up today, this is her first movie in a theater...so we'll see if she make it through...

Quiet

I haven't meant to be so quiet. But my work is lame, they have all kinds of weird blocks on the Internet, really I have to get special "manager" access just to be able to pull up legal blogs and anything that had the words shop/shopping/store. It was so annoying! A big part of my job is Internet research, I had them take those off, but I still have a bunch of stuff blocked.

So my point is I have started a couple of posts but I used to be able to edit and post them at my old job. When I get home, and after monkey goes to bed I'm tired and when I read them they sound crazy and rambling.... like this one!

I can access blogs now at work but it was a such a pain to get them to lift the block, I'm super paranoid and worry that I am being monitored. It doesn't stop me from surfing though I just read a lot of news stories, do they really think people are going to be more productive with the blocks?? I'm not used to being treated like a child, I had so much freedom at old job, I miss it : (

Anywho my point is that I didn't mean to be so quiet....

work

I'm rockin it at work. I really hope they pay for law school (fingers crossed.) I decided to think of myself as something of a covert op in the for-profit world. Someday I'll be out there fighting for good instead of evil. I'm exaggerating my company is not really evil.

I have really had the chance to shine there, so far. At Big Firm it was so hard, I was so low on the totem pole. I was giving the most lowly work and when I did anything 50 people had to look at it, find all my typos, extra spaces or incorrect spacing, and then change it to match their style. It wasn't very good for my self esteem. At new job I got a project my first day, I have been running with it and they seem very happy. I've already lost 15 pounds and I am off anti-depressants. Amazing what being busy and having a purpose will do for you!

Already

I think I've already had a glimpse of who THAT GUY will be in my section. I was doing a little social networking via the Internet w/ my new classmates and there it was, already a credential dropping post with obscure references and a pun made in Latin. IN LATIN. already? really? ..... really?

I told work I'm going to law school, it was anticlimatic execept,.....I almost don't want to write it in fear of a jinx, but I maybe able to have my tuition reimbursed through tuition assistance... THE WHOLE THING! but it's not a done deal so no jumping up and down yet. The world will still be there to save when I come out of law school right? ... Right and I'll be in a much better mood, crusading around if I am debt free!!

They grow up too fast!!!

I need to get rid of the TV my 3 year old just told me she needs an Ab Pro something for a "flat tummy"..........

Fall

I saw a tentative schedule for Fall. Seriously how did I not see this before? I think I was blinded by my admissions obsession. Out of any school I have seen, I think it's the most brutal p/t schedule, but maybe I am making that up. I'm really trying not to freak out, but I am feeling like I am never going to see my husband and daughter again.

It would be SOOOO much easier if I had my last job! It was MUCH closer to the school and more flexible, but I really have to stop thinking about that. Nothing I can do about that! I haven't told my new job I'm going to school. I'm not sure what I'm scared of, I think I am still shell shocked from being laid off. I'm afraid they are going to be pissed b/c I told them my goal was to be a career paralegal/ specialist, but what else are you going to say? I told the firm the same thing but then I found out they were very law school friendly.. this place I don't know yet, I can't tell.
I am still planning on working in the Fall so it's not like I am leaving but I don't want them to think I am keeping it from them.... I don't know.

My father said if someone is going to be upset about me wanting to better myself then it's their problem, and normally I have a f*em attitude, but in this economic climate? ummm not so much!

Also I work for a foreign company that is very disaster conscious and I have a raging cold right now, I got nasty looks all day! I thought they were going to spray me down w/ Lysol. Yet another sucky thing about cubicles. I am going to the DR tomorrow, so I can confirm it is not pig flu!

Happy Monday (cough)